Today is the day I am supposed to get my period. It hasn't come yet. I feel all jumbled. I don't want to get too excited because I could still not be pregnant, but I don't want to get disappointed yet because I could still be pregnant. I keep thinking it's coming, but then it's not here. I've gone to the bathroom 20 times this morning (well, that's an exaggeration ... maybe just 15). I don't feel crampy but I don't always feel crampy before it comes, just after. I also don't want to jinx anything. I'm not even sure I should post this! I'm afraid that the second I click "publish post" I'll go to the bathroom and have my period.
I did have a dream that I was pregnant last night.
I love this picture. He looks a lot like my brother but with lighter hair.
I know I owe you all a post. There's not a lot to share, however. This whole process, as you know if you've tried to get pregnant before, is a waiting game.
I wasn't sure if we'd even try this cycle because I had a business trip to New York right around the time that I was supposed to be ovulating. I'm using an Ovulation Prediction Kit (OPK) to determine when I'm ovulating and when it turns positive, it is telling you that you'll ovulate within the next 24-48 hours (or something like that). So if the OPK is positive, we go in to inseminate the next day. I was only staying one night (a Monday) in NYC, so when the OPK was negative on Sunday, I knew I wasn't ovulating on Monday, so I brought the OPK with me to the hotel and sure enough, it turned positive on Tuesday morning so it all worked out fine.
Now we're just waiting again. This is the hardest part of the whole thing. You start analyzing every little twinge or bubble to be a pregnancy sign. Of course, the early signs of pregnancy are the same as PMS symptoms. I feel the exact same way I did last month (when I had convinced myself I was pregnant) so I don't know if that's bad because that means I'll get my period or if it's just inconclusive because it could go either way. If you asked me if I thought I am pregnant now, one minute I will say yes and the next I will say no.
I should know in about a week. Just in time for grandma to come visit Nate from Chicago!
I'm so excited for my mom's visit. Nate is so much bigger and chatty than he was when she was last here in March. Chatty in his own way.